Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

All praises are only for Allah S.W.T. Salawat and salam for our esteemed leader Muhammad S.A.W. and his Sahabahs. Amma Ba’du.

Alhamdulillah, I am well here. I am writing this letter simply because I want you all to remain istiqomah and patient, as well as never stop in conveying the haq. To be a noble human being is not an easy thing, I might not be as 'alim and taqwa as other friends, buy my Jihad has to go through this and make me like this. Istiqomah, istiqomah and istiqomah… All these are from the hearts, clean hearts that will produce clean results, that will be harvested by millions of human beings, that is JIHAD.

In da'wah and jihad, what is happening to me is just as a motivator for the struggles of our jihad ahead. So that you all will be spurred in da'wah and jihad. Jihad cannot stop even if we are tortured, imprisoned and etc.

My friends whom I love for the sake of Allah. When I was arrested on that day, they took the opportunity to torture and abuse me, in fact I was insulted and reviled and even more chronic, I was slandered as homosexual. They wanted to bring down my honor, but by the wills of Allah, Allah still protected me in order to be istiqomah. Friends, of course it feels hard to face this trial but it is there where the sweetness of a struggle is located. It is there where the sweetness of the jihad which we have been shouting all these while in our media, can be found. It then becomes the consequences, that we are tried by Allah. If we are patient, then pleasures and honour will be given to us by Allah.

Make me as the supplier of the spirits for our struggles. As long as I don't move away from the true path behind this iron bars, Allah will give me the chances to do more muhasabah and taqarrub ilallah. There is one hadith that makes me remain able and continue to be enthusiastic even more, insha Allah.

This is the hadith: “And God’s Messenger said: ‘The size of your reward will be in proportion to your bravery, and if God loves a people He puts them to the test, and whoever pleases Him will be rewarded in kind and whoever angers Him will be rewarded in kind’” (HR. Tirmizi dan Ibn Majah)

Subhanallah, how beautiful is this saying of the Prophet, to wish for the great rewards and win paradise, not to mention the shaheed in the jihad arena, it has to be through various trials until our sins are erased and we must be pleased with the tests that Allah gives us, so that the spirit of the believers will be incited. Therefore, keep on inflaming the spirits of the believers. Proclaim and convey the truth though bitter, but it has to be with 'ilm not emotion like in our forum. Convey clearly according to the verses of Allah and saying of the Prophet S.A.W. :

Rasulullah said: “Verily, a person truly has a position with Allah, but there is no deed that could bring him there, thus Allah always tests him with things that he does not like, until he could reach that position as wanted by Allah.” (HR.Abu Ya’la and Ibn Hibban)

Subhanallah, how wonderful is this hadith of the Prophet SAW. Allah is giving us the lofty position but we have not attained it, until Allah gives us the tests, so that we can occupy that lofty position, how beautiful, O Mujahid and Mujahidah. So why must we be sad?? All the trials that Allah gives us will surely be paid with beautiful and comforting reward, the eternal paradise, as long as we are patient.

When my hands and legs were cuffed like the terrorist that they speak of, and my eyes were tightly covered with a duct tape... damned Densus, spoiled my handsome face... Hehehe. Then, I was beaten on the face and chest, kicked and then beaten with a rattan cane. I cried at that time, my tears began to flow, NOT because of the pain or anything else, but it was at that time that I felt the bliss of this test, it felts so blissful, I could only thanked Allah. Maybe all these while I was only watching it through the video clips of our brothers in Guantanamo being treated like that, but now I am feeling it. I am confident that the Mujahideen are also feeling it like that when accompanied with patience and firmness.

Tests and trials result in 2 consequences, HONOURABLE and CURSED. Honourable when being patient, cursed when otherwise and even more beautiful if it can become an eraser for our sins, which might be that all these while we are being negligent and unaware that our deeds were ever off track.

May the benefits of advice be for you all, keep up the spirit, read Al Qur’an a lot and don't forget the zikr in the morning and evening. For all the Cyber Mujahids and the ikhwans at Arrahmah.Com Forum, Ikhwani wa akhwati fillah whom I love, may Allah always give istiqomah to you in conveying the truth. The greatness of the rewards are seen from the heaviness of the tests, this is in accordance with the hadith of Rasul above. I love you all for the sake of Allah. I have never met you, much less more than that. The Arrahmah.Com Forum unifies us, loving each other for the sake of Allah, advising each other in patience (sabr) and truth (haq).

Remember, the strength of the Muslims now is upon the aqeedah and ukhuwah. It has no meaning when unity is based on the feeling of nationalism and Asabiyah. It must be based on the true aqeedah. This life is only temporary, the prison is the not the last place in this life, it is a small part from the journey of life. And this place that I am feeling now doesn't mean that I am better, but at least trying to become a better person through all these tests. May you all be istiqomah and be united in conveying the haq through the Islamic medias, provide the spirits and kindle the flame of jihad in the cyber and real world. Pray that I will always be patient and istiqomah behind these iron bars. May we meet again, Insha Allah.